FOLLOW THROUGH

Here is a cold dark uncompromising world. Sure it may seem that there are advertisements of happiness, of belonging. Humans are suppose to care. The people that are close should stay close forever. There is follow through. Interactions have meaning.

But, if you are an idealist like me, you should be alerted you're up for disappointment. People will fail (you). The world won't change (like you thought it would at your voice). Like I said before: here (right here) is a cold dark uncompromising world. 

Then, in the midst of everything, the most unexpected of people will act in the most unexpected of ways (like in the ways the advertisements noted). Here is still a cold dark uncompromising world. But, it is to contrast the people that follow through- the humans with whom interactions have meaning.

SAILING AWAY WITH SUMMER

Notable: night sailing is awesome, low light photography is hard, summer is over

REST.

Take a break.

Notable: Original shot, time for a break (before the fall semester starts)

Strange Days

Notable: a quote to match my day

Emphasis on Culture

Notable: this is going to be one of those rare posts that breaks the just phrases/short sentence format.

So, I'm sitting here trying to reformat my resume, but instead thinking how important creative has become for me.

The best way I can describe myself is I care, think, and judge way to much. On a given morning you'll find me in my car on my way to xyz drinking way to much coffee while yelling to myself about all the other idiots I am stuck in a traffic jam with. If I was a geographical location I would be the East Coast. This afternoon I was talking to my brother about his college plans. What baffles me is that he is totally ok with wherever he ends up. His biggest struggle- choosing a "reach school." I don't mean this is a bad way. He just has less of the urge to be competitive, to keep on pushing. In comparison, my senior year I was in tears like every other day obsessing over essays and applications as is a few words phrased differently would make the difference if I got into a school or not. Because of this,  if my brother was a geographical location he would be the West Coast. [So I am just going to call him West Coast from now on.] On a given morning you can find him sleeping in.

The problem with being so "East Coast" motivated: I psych myself out. I think too much instead of acting. Sometimes I would be so much better off if I just let go.

This sounds easy, but its incredibly hard for me. The only thing that I have found that really solves this is tapping into my creative side. A key part of design and art is not thinking but letting nature takeover. The eye naturally understands the rules of aesthetics. I have this professor that literally says just have fun and play it makes for a much better composition. The creative side of me is less aware of what is acceptable/the norm and way more innovative.

It's OK that I have drive and lean towards a more serious nature. It helps me get things done and set bigger goals. I mean, West Coast needs to get it together with his college apps. But, I am so glad I have a creative side to balance myself with.

So, as for life goals [and what I am currently trying to get across in my resume] I need things that bring creativity into my life. I need art, travel, and innovation.  In short, although I'll probably end up doing something related to economics [that is my major fyi], I need an emphasis on culture.

Wrong or Right

Notable: Bold graphic, juxtaposition of the cycle of the wave with the quote

Point: I sure hope this saying is right... 

Freedom

Via

Notable: the possibilities

Point: I've finished that very hard economics class and just celebrated the fourth. I feel so free. Now, I still have other classes, work, and general life stuff, but I am going to have more time for creative side projects (like this blog!). So, expect new things, improvements and just general great stuff. Cheers to freedom!

Wondering

Notable: The photos source, the fact that the quote pretty much calls me intelligent

Be Humble

Loving this quote and the blog where I found it today.

Happiness

Heart

Don't Follow the Crowd,

Follow

 your Heart.



Striking Truths

I found this website striking truths. Lets just say I'm in love with their company.

Getting Personal

Ok, so far I haven't made this blog very personal, frankly because it's scary for me to think of my personal feelings out on the internet for anyone to judge. I am still developing what exactly I want my blog to be, and I love reading about other bloggers personal thoughts and feelings. So, today (since it's words of wisdom Wednesday) I am just going to go for it.

I flip-flop constantly about the way I feel about my blog. Sometimes I think it's perfect. It's a representation of me, I love the design, and there is a specific audience out there that finds my content relevant. Other times I feel the exact opposite. Especially when I compare my blog to all the other blogs out there, its content seems scatter, its design inadequate, and I especially get myself down about the quality of what I write (seriously I have always struggled with spelling and grammar.)

This situation is not to unlike what I face in the real world. Sometimes, I get caught up in all the ways I could become really successful and all the things I could accomplish after school. Yet, I still feel like I don't have a definite direction. I recently have made some pretty risky moves that I think have paid off because I am more happy, but the social circle I am constantly in doesn't. This is the social circle that thinks the only path in life in some variation of feeder school-prep school- top tier university- top tier fraternity/sorority- medical school/law school/ masters. I feel like I am constantly judged when all I can really say about my future is I really don't know yet.

In reality, I think my blog and my life probably fall somewhere between the good and bad extremes I have laid out. More importantly, I have been trying to waste less time about what other people are thinking about me and what they are doing better than I am. Instead, I am trying to embrace what makes me happy and is important to me. My blog and my plans for the future are still very young. They both will grow, change, and get better with time.

What are your personal/blog goals for the future? What did you think of my more personal blog post?

PS- my favorite kind of blogs to follow are the new kind, leave your blog address in the comments so we can connect.

Dawn

What happens, happens

photo credit

Light me up

 

"I personally try to avoid all ceiling lights because I think that overhead light is a tragedy."

-Albert Hadley

We are something when we are all together...

Happy Saturday!



Flounder, flounder in the sea

"'Flounder, flounder in the sea, 

Come, I pray thee, here to me;

For my wife, good Ilsabil,

Wills not as I'd have her will.'

'Well, what does she want, then?' said the Flounder. 'Alas, said he, 'she wants to be like unto God.' 'Go to her and you will her back in the dirty hovel.' And there they are living still at this very time"

In the rain

"You must be somewhere in London
you must be loving your life in the rain
you must be somewhere in London
walking merrily"

-the National